A Smoke Screen

I know it’s a hot topic right now, and I’ve really resisted the urge to write about this- about gay marriage.  But quite frankly, I can’t stay quiet any longer.  I’m not really mad, to be honest I don’t really care if gay marriage is legal or not (that will be touched on soon).  What I DO care about is truth, and I’m seeing a lot of people in support of gay marriage post articles written about how the bible doesn’t say homosexuality is wrong, and in fact supports it.  I need to say to all of you (there have been so many I can’t respond to every post) that you, and the writers of those articles are so very, very wrong. First Corinthians reads, ”  I wrote to you in my epistle not to keep company with sexually immoral people. 10 Yet I certainly did not mean with the sexually immoral people of this world, or with the covetous, or extortioners, or idolaters, since then you would need to go out of the world. 11 But now I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner—not even to eat with such a person.  For what have I to do with judging those also who are outside? Do you not judge those who are inside?”

In Leviticus 18:22 it say’s, “Do not practice homosexuality, having sex with another man as with a woman. It is a detestable sin.”  PLAIN AND SIMPLE.  But for more context, 1 Corinthians 6:9-11 say’s, “Don’t you realize that those who do wrong will not inherit the Kingdom of God? Don’t fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, or who worship idols, or commit adultery, or are male prostitutes, or practice homosexuality, or are thieves, or greedy people, or drunkards, or are abusive, or cheat people-none of these will inherit the Kingdom of God. Some of you were once like that. But you were cleansed; you were made holy; you were made right with God by calling on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.”  Another verse is 1 Timothy 1:8-10, “
Now we know that the law is good, if one uses it lawfully, understanding this, that the law is not laid down for the just but for the lawless and disobedient, for the ungodly and sinners, for the unholy and profane, for those who strike their fathers and mothers, for murderers, the sexually immoral, men who practice homosexuality, enslavers, liars, perjurers, and whatever else is contrary to sound doctrine ..”

So to clear things up- homosexuality is a sin. Just like lying, stealing, raping, and murder.

I also understand a lot of you really believe that homosexuality is natural, and therefore morally acceptable.  Dr. James Dobson writes, “..if homesexuality were specifically inherited by a dominnet gene pattern, it would tend to be eliminated from the human gene pool because those who have it tend to not reproduce. Any characteristic that is not passed along to the next generation eventually dies with the individual who carries it.  Not only does homosexuality continue to exist in nations around the world, it flourishes in some cultures.  If the condition resulted from inherited characteristics, it would be a “constant” across time.  Instead, there have been societies through the ages, such as Sodom and Gomorrah and the ancient Greek and Roman empires, where homosexuality reached epidemic proportions.  The historical record tells us that those cultures and many others gradually descended into depravity…” Another thought on that is this- since twins share the same chromosomal pattern (DNA), the genetic contributions are exactly the same within each of the pairs.  Therefore, if one twin is “born” homosexual, the other should as well. But that’s not the case. I know MANY sets of twins where the two are as opposite as light and dark.

All this to get to Gay Marriage and where I stand, as of now (I’m by no means perfect at understanding things and continue to study and learn).  Politically I am not against it.  I do not think the government should at all be in the business of families and defining them.  I leave that up to God, soley.  God even warned us about this!  Isreal wanted a new King because they God wasn’t enough, and God warned them what would happen and it did!!  In 1 Samuel it reads:

But when they said, “Give us a king to lead us,” this displeased Samuel; so he prayed to the Lord.And the Lord told him: “Listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king. As they have done from the day I brought them up out of Egypt until this day, forsaking me and serving other gods, so they are doing to you. Now listen to them; but warn them solemnly and let them know what the king who will reign over them will claim as his rights.”

10 Samuel told all the words of the Lord to the people who were asking him for a king. 11 He said, “This is what the king who will reign over you will claim as his rights: He will take your sons and make them serve with his chariots and horses, and they will run in front of his chariots. 12 Some he will assign to be commanders of thousands and commanders of fifties, and others to plow his ground and reap his harvest, and still others to make weapons of war and equipment for his chariots. 13 He will take your daughters to be perfumers and cooks and bakers. 14 He will take the best of your fields and vineyards and olive groves and give them to his attendants. 15 He will take a tenth of your grain and of your vintage and give it to his officials and attendants. 16 Your male and female servants and the best of your cattle[c] and donkeys he will take for his own use. 17 He will take a tenth of your flocks, and you yourselves will become his slaves. 18 When that day comes, you will cry out for relief from the king you have chosen, but the Lord will not answer you in that day. ”

19 But the people refused to listen to Samuel. “No!” they said. “We want a king over us. 20 Then we will be like all the other nations, with a king to lead us and to go out before us and fight our battles.”

To sum it up, God is our King.  Not Obama. Yes we are to follow the law of the land, but it seems to me we are putting to much power in the hands of our politicians.  God is king, make no mistake.   Obama didn’t create two becoming one- so they can put a stamp on it and call it marriage if they want, doesn’t mean it is!  Yes- it gives the homosexual community the same rights as other married couples but I quite honestly don’t think that’s the problem, nor do I even blame them for wanting that, nor do I disagree with that.  My best friend and I, when our husbands were deployed, often joked that we would need to get a civil union someday if both our husbands died so we could just be friends yet be allowed to be in the hospital room if one of us is sick, or pick Ayden up from school etc.  You might think that’s weird considering we’re not at all lesbian, but the government has so much control right now a dear, close friend cannot even hold the hand of the their dying friend!

Gay marriage, my friends, is NOT the issue.  It’s a smoke screen.  The issue is sin.  Sin that we ALL have.  Sin that Christ died for.  The homosexual community will not desicrcrate marriage more then we bible freaks already do. I don’t need to give the current divorce rates, because we all know them- MOST of us reading this come from very broken homes. MOST of us reading this come from broken homes in the Christian community. The problem is our men, our leaders and protectors are too busy looking at porn and not busy enough bringing up our boy’s to be Men of God.  The problem is us women have bought the lie that we don’t need men, that it’s oppression to stay home and raise our kids and tend to our families.  And the majority of us that stay home are bitter towards our husbands, and do nothing to encourage and love and respect them.  We’re a mess! The problem is us.  All of us.  Every single one of us.  Gay, straight, engineer, pastor, wife, chef, porn star, Mother Teresa….we are all sinners.  We all need Christ.  We all need the same savior.  The fight should be in bringing people to Christ, loving people to repentance.  Letting CHRIST transform our world, NOT US trying to transform the world through political games.  Who can save us? Who can protect us? Surely not the law.

“I do not nullify the grace of God, for if righteousness comes through the Law, then Christ died needlessly.” Galatians 2:21

“Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh?”   Galatians 3:3

“For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision means anything, but faith working through love.” Galatians 5:6

Sinner’s need Christ.  Our world is dying without Him.  Our families are falling apart without Him.  Our children are falling apart with Him.  I fall apart without Him.

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A confession

I’m not sure how to come out and say this, and I’ve wrestled with if I even should….but I have learned over and over that pride (which would be the only reason for me to NOT share this) doesn’t glorify God nor does it lift up the body of Christ and honestly, I could use a good portion of humble pie- so here I go…here is my confession:

I’m not really excited about Micah.  I’m not happy to be pregnant.  I don’t, at all, want another child…and a baby at that.  I’m to the point now, where my dread has gone but there still is little to no excitement.  Let me give you some history why.

When Ayden was born, I had severe post partum blues.  I didn’t know it then, and even when I and those around me suspected it, it wasn’t talked about. With all due respect, my husband, my rock and my everything was deploying in 4 weeks and picturing life without him for 15 months was hard- but I wasn’t picturing life without him for 15 months…I was sure he would get shot and die, and leave me and Ayden to fend for ourselves.  So all the things I experienced after Ayden was born, I blamed on circumstance.

When Ayden cried, my skin crawled and I wanted to just walk away from motherhood. When Ayden smiled, I cried because Levi missed it.  When he did nothing, I didn’t know what the heck to do- do I just look at you?  Do I talk to you? who arrrrre you?  I had no clue what being a Mom was….and what babies needed.  So….I just starred at him. I didn’t like holding him.  I didn’t like feeding him.  I didn’t like changing him.  I pretty much detested everything being a Mom entailed.  I even had visions of…..things…very bad things….that I can’t to this day utter to the world of FB or on blog “paper.”  That seems too…forever.  Experiencing these emotions…the fear of loosing my husband at war, and the reality of being a new Mom that has actually never changed a diaper was overwhelming, and it emptied me.  I was a walking, breathing, empty human being.

So Levi deployed, and I was numb. No real crying, no real emotions.  So this went on for about 5 months with a lot of screaming in ones pillow, throwing ones pillow, and having some serious words with God.  I was angry.  I was sad.  I was lost.

I say all this to explain WHY I’m not excited about Micah. I’m too nervous to be excited and I want you (yes, you) to know.  I don’t know what to say when people around me show excitement and say what a blessing babies are….because I don’t get it. I don’t have any happy memories of Ayden as a new baby.  But something..alongside my cautiosness I do have- is Christ.  When I was empty and lost, He filled me. Christ took my husband away when, really, I need him most- and filled the void. I had nobody but Christ and I see now- how intentional that was.  In Job, it reads “He said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked I shall return there. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away. Blessed be the name of the LORD.”  I learned, no matter what has been taken away, BLESSED BE THE NAME!  And although life as I knew it had been taken, my husband had been taken, my family….God GAVE to me through that.  The year Levi deployed, which is also the first year of Ayden’s life I received these blessings:

A best friend who is deeply rooted in Christ, and who never left my side and still hasn’t, patience (although, this is the gift that keeps giving….), trust in my Lord, perspective, an appreciation for serving someone- even though you don’t feel love for them, faith that it this too shall pass, a much needed boost in my conversations with God, the skill to pack a house and move in a timely and positive manner, joy…true joy untouched by circumstances, and an amazing little boy who reminds me on a daily basis that it’s not about me- it’s about what God has called me to be to glorify Him and right now that’s being Ayden and Micah’s Mom, and Levi Ball’s wife.

So although I am not excited about having another baby- there is a joy and a peace that transends even my understanding.  I know everything will be ok. I don’t know how, I might have baby blues again and I might be beyond hormonal…but God’s got this.  I fully expect the blessing to overwhelm me at some point, even if it takes a few years.  I trust God, that this surprise we call Micah will transform our lives and change them forever. I’m nervous about that change, but trusting it and (as if I have a choice) going with it.

I hope this wasn’t too much of a downer for all those new Mom to be’s out there- but I hope if you experience the same thing I did that you also put your trust in Christ, and be open to the amazing things He can teach you (and that, of course, you will be ok).

OK. I’m hitting “post blog.”  EEK…….

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